I'm making a promise. a seal up promise. i'm going to seal up my heart.. the next girl whom i'm going to fall in love with will not live pass 30yrs old... i'll never ever woo another girl ever in my entire life.. I vow to do n will make sure i stick to this promise.
Sealed and Witness.
(will i be able to live with it? or am i just making a fool out of myself?)
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Friday, 5 March 2010 =) 10:58 pm
Moving to NEW PLACE... http://newbornkenny.blogspot.com/
Everyday is Sunny.
=D =) 1:19 am
went to watch dear john with butt... very confusing movie... but overall rating was it just touch me... some part of the movie u could just put urself in tt character's shoe.. . u'll just wonder y... y issit so true..
the ending wasnt really very wad i expected... but still it makes u bleed... couldnt get myself to cry during the movie.. wad a FAIL! wanna make myself sad for the whole movie.. but i just got to understand 1 thing... u rather get hurt then to see the other party get hurt... u rather keep it to urself then to say it out... it's sometimes better tt way... to shut up.. n let it sink into u...sink deep into u... let it be sth tt will never be known... let it be sth tt only u urself know the answer...
if u say tt 3 words out... u know u meant it... but how much weight does it carry? how much does it meant to tt special some1?? if u would rater know... the truth hurts... n the answer would rather be disclosed... never to be known... written on a piece of paper n burnt away...
Dear ____,
I miss you... I really do...
Love,
Kenny
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Wednesday, 3 March 2010 =) 12:42 am
deep inside somewhere is telling me to just move on with it n travel far far away from this place... but another voice just tells me not to due to some reasons...
as for now... i would really wan to travel... i wan to move away from this place... i'm getting sick of it... real sick.. i wan to disconnect from this world... this internet world... cyber world...
see the world n explore... at the same time help... tt's wad i really wan to do... or issit so?
for now... i've nth to lose already... i've nth left to be a burden of.. i've nth to be crazy for... no idol, no dreams, no things... nth.. empty...
just a shell here.. with no idea...
p.s. i bless u truly from the bottom of my heart n may happiness be with you always n smiles on ur lovely face... from a friend whom will always be there for u thru thick n thin
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Monday, 1 March 2010 =) 9:01 pm
wad does it meant to u? how do u define it? Love. 1 word.. that can link up to 28 meanings.. which of it does it bring to u??
Love - a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
Love - a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
so many more... just dun know which to use...
do i really love her so deep tt i just couldnt let it go at all? am i so deeply in love that i cant stop thinking about her at all? am i able to move on without her ard? everytime i ask for focus n strength to concentrate.. i'm granted with full thoughts of her n the great times we had together.. i wan to keep my mind off her but i cant.. i just wish tt my memory would go off just like tt... i dun rmb who u r... n i'm just a complete stranger to u... we never met, we dun know each other at all..
issit too much to ask for? sometimes we asked is He the Great One playing with our life? is He so bored that He just wan to see me misery? however some look at it this way, He knows tt i can make it thru cause He knows that i've the capability to do so.. which side would u be on?? the look on the bright side or blame it on others if u can??
i feel like abit of both... sometimes i just wan to cry it out n shout... letting the rain pour on me n wash me... wash me clean n awake... at least after tt i know i'm loved someway or another..
ppl r sick of me talking about it... ppl r sick of seeing me this way... ppl r sick of me tt they rather walk away from me... it's just how u take things... i couldnt take it because i cant bear to... i'm not willing to... i never lost it... but... i had no choice... no choice but it's God's will.. He wants me to move on.. He is trying to force me to.. but somehow i always move n stop.. is there some1 willing to pull me along till the day i can move on by myself? will there be some1 willing to spend their time trying to pull me out of this mess? is there such a kind soul out there?
Friendship, Relationship? which is more important?? would u keep a friendship n lose a relationship or had tt relationship rune and friendship seems so unclear to u.. is there a way to keep both?? if u r living in earth n taking in oxygen as ur primary source of living.. the freaking answer to u is NO! NO CHANCE IN HELL U CAN GET TO KEEP BOTH!!! tt's the fact... accept it... u either lose 1... or both...
Cant bear to lose it? u just have to be the thick skin 1... but will it be gd? it had been stated tt ppl felt better without u ard n they r much more relieve about telling u all the things u need to know n thy need to say... so?? u still wan to be there?? u dare to be there??
having to know some1 u love so dearly is leaving u n u never wanted it to end is never a gd feeling.. if not for those mistake, there might still be chance but it just hurts u even more whn u think of the times u spend together... the things u told each other, the promises, the lovely moment... but it just ended.. as gd as a knife slowly moving across ur heart.. it just doesnt want to stab n end ur life.. it just move ard u slowly... letting u feel the cold n sharp blades..
tears r ard ur eyes but u just couldnt shed a tear... not tt u dun wan.. not tt u wanna prove tt u r a man... u just couldnt do it...
sick now, but who cares? the 1 u love dearly cant be bothered about ur life... cause y? ppl have other much more important stuff to worry about... seriously need a helping hand to pull me out... i've less then 48hrs...
God, I believe that you are planning something special for me.. I believe so..
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Sunday, 28 February 2010 =) 1:37 am
We go into denial because the loss is so unthinkable we can't imagine it's true. We become angry with everyone, angry with survivors, angry with ourselves. Then we bargain. We beg. We plead. We offer everything we have, we offer our souls in exchange for just one more day. When the bargaining has failed and the anger is too hard to maintain, we fall into depression, despair, until finally we have to accept that we've done everything we can. We let go. We let go and move into ACCEPTANCE.
saw this from somewhere... how true can it be?? i mean... i've been thru all... for those ard me... i guess u should know it better...
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Friday, 26 February 2010 =) 12:44 am
I've no idea wad to write... but this is the song tt can actually express my feelings.. other then tt... i really dun know wad else to say already... I'm too lost n too unsure to do anymore talking...
"You're Beautiful by James Blunt"
My life is brilliant.
My life is brilliant. My love is pure. I saw an angel. Of that I'm sure. She smiled me on the subway. She was with another man. But I won't lose no sleep on that, 'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful, You're beautiful, You're beautiful, it's true. I saw your face in a crowded place, And I don't know what to do, 'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yes, she caught my eye, As I walked on by. She could see from my face that I was, Flying high, And I don't think that I'll see her again, But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful, You're beautiful, You're beautiful, it's true, I saw your face in a crowded place, And I don't know what to do, 'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. There must be an angel with a smile on her face, When she thought up that I should be with you. But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you.
