=D Wednesday, 13 May 2009 =) 11:34 pm
where am i? where do i stand?
am i being used or already used?
whose there? wad is their purpose?
do i wan to be love or do i wan to give love?
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Tuesday, 12 May 2009 =) 1:01 am
such irony... having such a build body... yet the mind is so naive... should i be laughing at myself or should i just pity myself?
it's kinda expected or predicted? wad will happen or things turn out?? am i just digging my own grave knowing wad's gona happen?
i guess it's time to face it... no point holding on sth tt u dun know who does it belong to... it hurts but sooner or later it has to be done... maybe it's fate... maybe it's pre-plan? maybe my name should just start with "I".
wad is my goal? wad do i wan in my own life? wad is my purpose of living? where do i belong? who am i actually?
do i really wan to let it go? am i willing to do it? my answer/question will be "Do I have a Choice?" even if i do... how many are there for me to choose... i guess it's pre-plan by me... i asked if i'll screw my yr3 if i ever told her about it... i asked wad will happen if she rejects me... i asked wad will i do whn i'm in sch... i asked.. but no answer...
trust, it's too big/heavy word to be use...
believe, too sensitive...
understand, never did at all... no point using...
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Sunday, 10 May 2009 =) 2:14 am
we r of different world.. we r of different interest... we dun have common liking... am i forcing myself too much? have i fallen into it too deep? i know i love her... but... i dun know... i dun know wad/who am i loving?
am i able to give her the happiness? am i able to give wad she's looking for? sometimes i wonder to myself... wad do i have to offer? wad issit gd about me? if u think tt i'm emo.. i'm not actually... i'm just wondering... wondering wad would it be like in the future... how would things turn out... i know it's abit too early to talk about it... but... will the word "Possible" come into the picture? are we actually matching? i dun wan to be the 1 tt disgrace her... i dun wan to be the 1 tt's dragging her...
am i changing for her to love me or is she changing for the sake of me? wad is relationship about really? does states really mean so much? isnt bf n gf just a name?
What hurts the most, is being so close.
Having so much to say, watching you walk away.
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Saturday, 2 May 2009 =) 2:02 am
am i trying too hard?? or am i just pushing my luck?? am i doing too much?? wad is limit? am i over doing things??? it's kinda hard to manage it... but i just couldnt help it... am i actually over doing it?? should i take 5steps back?? am i too rushy?? i'm really confused...
i'm sry but... i dun know... do i know too much or do i talk too much?? am i just not tt perfect after all?? am i just not ur type of guy? am i just the passerby which will never be able to be the 1 walking down the rest of the road side by side with u? wad should i be doing right now?? wad am i consider right now?? who am i actually?? where is the real kenny?? whose the real kenny? how does the real kenny looks like actually?? what will he be doing right now?? this isnt me... i wont be like this... i should be having my own stand... i should be able to walk the road by myself even whn ppl disappear... i wont be so crazy over... i wont be doing all this... i will be the slacker which never cares about anything... happy go lucky everyday... wad has i become?? am i changing for the person i love?? am i changing for the sake of her???
why... why am i doing this.... why am i becoming like this... wad has gotten into me... wad am i doing.... i wanna get a grip of myself... but... but... it just drives me crazy... it drives me nuts... it drives me... F***!!!! WAD IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHH!!!! this is wrong... so wrong... crap... I screwed myself... totally screwed myself... some1 please chop off my hands, some1 please cut my eyes... chop off my tongue plz... some1... do it for me.. PLEASE!~ It the only choice i have currently...
I've got to end this... i've got to stop myself... i've got to know my limit... i've got to do sth about it... i've got to.... i've got to.... arghh... i'm aimless already... i've no aim... i dun know wad am i after already... wad is my goal... i lost my purpose... i lost my goal... i'm lost....
I've lost the old kenny....
Everyday is Sunny.
