=D Saturday, 28 February 2009 =) 2:47 pm
has so much fun ytd... it was the class bbq organized by my poly classmates... didnt did much actually... just help out in food n abit of transport ba... hahaha...
met up with dan, my funny cute over grown baby classmate... hahaha... suppose to go for lunch.. but didnt felt hungry anw... so just drove ard... until big boss, adelina, called.. so went to pick her up... thn we went to bbq wholesales to grab foods thn to bedok to get bbq items... car was pack with stuff.... went down to ecp... set up with the help of some classmate to move those things...
after the move those stuff to the pit.. some went off to rent bike... left me n dan there... we both laugh at each other n start up the fire... hahaha... we are the 1st few to be eating.. lolx... use my classic method to start up fire... more then 1 fire starter in the middle.. n start the fire big... hahaha.. it's the fastest n easiest method...
after start the fire, i gotta rush down to pick up sam... then rush back again.. i'm basically running about... hahaha... didnt really feel tired until i reach home n slp... lolx...
just regred not doing 1 thing during the bbq... forgot to take up my cam to take photos... =(( siann!!! oh well.. maybe next time i guess...
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Friday, 20 February 2009 =) 8:11 pm
it was only last yr... i had a crush with this young girl... but it was over whn things turn sour as time pass... i was having a hard time trying to get over it... but i eventually did anw...
almost 3yrs ago.. i had the heaviest crush with this beautiful girl in sch... the cream of the cream among the crop... but i still had to get over it eventually... y? got rejected duh...
after such hurting incidents... now another 1... another 1 tt almost killed me mentally... it's a mind game in relationship... u either have it sweet or have it head spinning... she's not as beautiful as 3yrs ago tt girl... but she's sweet looking, well organized, perfectionist, smart... actually almost all the girls i like r smart... oh well...
previous few actually took me awhile but i didnt have much emotional problem as compare to now... well.. it's from wad i feel... maybe it's not accurate at all... maybe all r equally the same.. but it really kills me this time.... issit because of my age? older u get the more emotional u get??
"pop the question... if not u will never know it..." it's easy to say then done... it may be a 50:50 chance... but it is still weird as the question is being asked... taking it slowly... ya... who dun wish it to be? the distance is already killing.. the silence is slowly torturing... i dun ask for much... just able take a decent photo, have a decent outing, nice decent friend jokes... additional will be able to send u home... able to lend u my jacket whn u feel cold... the extreme will be able to hold ur hand n walk u down the road... hug u tightly protecting u from the cold....
i still have 2 more papers to go... n now i cant seriously concentrate... i seriously think i'm gona screw up again this time... all i wan is just to pass... n go up to yr3... once there i'll find ways to fight back again... i believe i can reach a gpa of 3 somehow... know us being together seems impossible... but i'm willing to give it a shot... a shot for me to remember before i end my schooling life... dun even know whn will my next sch days be here again...
from the bottom of my heart, i'm deeply crazy over you i guess... you might just be the destiny... or maybe not.... is chance on my side this time round?
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Saturday, 14 February 2009 =) 11:05 pm
fire, water, earth, gold, wood... the 5 elements tt rule the earth.. too harsh to use rule... tt runs the world.. hmmm... different ppl has different elements... each element also has it's own characteristic...
had my slack time today... n was switching channels... switch until discovery channel... n saw this show about water... it's so common ard us but we r lack of them actually... clean drinkable water r hard to find... we uses techology to get water from sewage, seas, anywhere tt's possible to get...
it's such a compicated element tt can save u or kill u.... y? human r made up of 70% of water.. i think so la.. cant rmb the percentage already should be ard there... but ya... without water we cant survive at all... but water can also kill u by drowning u... flooding crops, capsize boat... so many things thy can do... thy also provides energy to us by running turbine...
if only i was water... able to be soild, liquid, gas... no matter wad happen also can withstand the pressure given to it.. y didnt i have this kind of ability... all i can do is just avoid it... avoiding everything tt's coming... i like her but i dun dare to tell her... i wanted to sms her... but didnt have the guts to press send... let's not talk about calling...
wad kind of common interest we shared? how am i going to know? 1 thing i know for sure... we walk different type of life... i walk the route tt makes a big detour being able to see ppl from all walks of life... nice, crappy, mean, hackcare, almost all colours of life i've seen... i just wan to travel n see the world... would she like to backpack with me to see the world?
ytd went out with 'bro' didnt expect will be so on to go out.... so went to holland V 1 veri special location i dun know where issit but i know it's there... so we drove down... n start hunting... n it's really at a location we didnt expect... corner of the street... the dessert there... oh man... i got shock when i place it inside my mouth... surprise after surprise... never fails to amuse me... ok... 2 desserts, 2 drinks, 1 side dish... guess the price... =D cost us up to $60 for this no so filling but veri nice meal... tt will soon be my next hang out area other then then usual prata area which is starting to bored me... maybe only whn i'm unhappy u'll find me there... if not... dun think i wanna make myself suffer financially love the ambiance there also.. >,< seriously feel in love with tt place...
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Monday, 9 February 2009 =) 10:17 pm
Looking out at my window... i could actually see the brightest moon i ever seen in my life... if only i could touch it with u... or watching it with u...
today is the last day of chinese new year.. no more gambling for me anymore.. i didnt get to gamble much anw.. didnt really enjoy this new yr at all.. all i did was note making, playing facebook, looking at ppl's new yr pictures, stuck with the 4wall surrounding me... this is how it will be this coming sat also... have to prepare myself for the coming exam... but i just couldnt get the mood in... i kept drifting away...
i would either await for the green icon to be shown on msn, or look into facebook for any updates... it's totally no life at all.. i'm like so dead already... felt like yr 1 tt time.. but this time round worse... i've totally lost it.. i've fell in love with some1 whom i shouldnt have..
she has this sweet looking face, soft gentle voice, not very tall nor very skinny... she has the mind of a businesswoman, independent lady.. things seem to be possible ard her... it's like the motto "just do it"
chatting with her will totally make my day.. crapping with her seems so enjoyable... anything to do with her will just make my day...
does she knows about me having such a huge crush on her? guess not...
can i let her know about me having this huge crush on her? guess not...
even if i told her about it, will she accpet me? guess not...
why this negative thinking?? well.. why not? I haven been veri successful in dating a girl, nor have i been or hold a girl's hand... who would wan to hold a sweaty palm? i dun even enjoy having it...
there's a name to this psychological feelings... a name which i dun even know how it is spelled.. i could just predict wad would happen n how it would turn out...
keeping it inside me kills... but tell out just kill both parties current relationship... guess i would rather go crazy and not let her know about it... dun wan more ppl to get hurt over such sensitive stuff... valentines' day coming, i had plan to bake..but i've to drop the idea due to lack of time n pressure given via the past CA i've scored... Arghh... how worse can my yrs of poly be? can i just get over the r/s thingy n move on alone?? must i really have some1 ard me to let me feel comfortable n to love me? (if u r talking about parent love... u r reading the wrong blog... seriously get a life...)
Destiny, are you my destiny??
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Saturday, 7 February 2009 =) 1:05 am
both happy and sad... happy cause i think we r starting to know more about each other which seems like sth good to start with... sad cause either i think i'm not gd enough to be by her side or i'll suffer a high chance of being rejected... either way it kills..
being rejected the most will be having difficulties seeing each other, either 1 of the party will keep a distance.. which is always the case... but at least she knows how i feel about her...
not gd enough... hey come on... i know my own limits...wad kind of ppl suitable for me n wad r not... let's not destory others dream for own sake... if u know u r not gd enough, dun put urself into the firehole n burn urself...
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Sunday, 1 February 2009 =) 11:32 pm
for 1 moment i'm excited n hyper over it... next i'm super sian n has no mood in doing anything at all already... said things tt i werent meant to say... but things r done n cant be undone...
for days i cant slp at all... took me more then 2hrs to get into slp n my memory is getting worse n worse... totally dun have study mood to kick start my revision.. issit because of 'it'?
'it' has blind my path way n has totally smoke me out for the past few days... could it be just because of 1 simple 'it' n it totally ruin me? is my life really ruin by 'it'??
time pass n plans started to fade away... dreams shattered... health getting worse... doing things without motivation at all... if ask... "wad happen?" i would just smile n act as if nth has happen... but inside my heart i wish to blast it all out... only if it hasnt been this way... y did i ever choose this path? issit fate? issit my destiny?
isnt it colourful at all whn u have nth at all... no worries, no stress, no pressures, just like a baby or children between the age of 3-5... every morning waking up just eat, play, slp... making friends by sharing toys... running about without much to care about... if only time could be turn back... i would rather stay as a children n never grow up.. ironically, whn we r young, we wanna grow up fast... we wanna be adult.. watch NC-16, M-18, R-21.. drink alcoholic drinks, smoke, do things tt arent suppose to be done under age... wad a funny world it is...
Who would believe other then my closest friend(s) [if any] that I actually have a hard time handling relationship... Eye candies, Crushes, Likes, Loves, Adore, Admire, Puppy love... u name it... why?? either I dun have a common topic to talk, or i'm too tounge tied... either i asked too fast, or get them to be my friend only(abit hard to phrase u get wad i mean..)
One of my friend ever told me, "your destiny isnt here yet, once it's here she will be the one for you." letting fate taking control of my life? issit wad i wan? Can u stop some1 from loving u or stop loving some1 u loved b4?
Kenny oh Kenny... u used to be a problem solver, relac only life, dun care much about wad has happen or not, have friends to play with or share things with... now... u r just a bum... coward, aim-less, sickload, worse then sotong fellow... could u at least pull ur socks higher? move abit faster, have a proper life??
Everyday is Sunny.
