=D Monday, 23 March 2009 =) 12:19 am
after so long of MIA i'm back to blog... had been working these few weeks... busy weeks... ITP (attachment) was in place... had afew overnight job... veri xiong... after knock off i've to go back n help my dad... but today i'm not gona blog about my work.. it's just too boring... i wanna cry out loud, i wanna cry with tears... i wanna slap myself for being such a coward...
went out to do some window shopping... need to know where can i get the stuff i planning to get... so ya.. met her n afew of my friends to go out... went to eat n had afew free trip shopping... didnt really do much... no movies or anything special...
after tt she goin back for dinner... but my other few friends wanna go play 'L4D' some zombie game... so ok lor.. send them to play 1st then send her back... if only time could stop for me n her... wanted it to last as long as possible... but it couldnt... upon reaching her house... i have to wait for her cause she went up to collect a book to pass to me... cause some1 borrow from her.. n i on behalf borrow...
she came down n wanted to get some snacks... so i tag along with her to get snacks... went to look for her favouriate snacks... thn walk her back home... this is where i hate myself... i could have actually ask her... i could have actually held her hand... i could have actually ask her to hang out alittle while more with me... but i just didnt have the courage.. didnt have the topic to pop it out... y... y does it always have to be this way... it sux to be me... so many things could have happen... it was the correct moment... it was the right time n only chance.. but i blew it up... i totally blew it up... it just sux to be me... it sux n it sux to the max...
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Sunday, 1 March 2009 =) 11:42 pm
didnt talk much for the whole day... i dun even know wad mood am i in.. am i in bad mood or am i just simply sick of it... i'm in a mix emotion state i guess... does it kill to just smile? Yes... does it kill not being able to go out with her? Yes... does it kill not being able to see her? wad u think about 7weeks not able to see....
issit just a polite reject? or issit just me being too possessive? she aint my who anw... y should i be so bothered? she doesnt even know about my feelings towards her... so wad's the big deal about she not being able to be with me?? so wad's the big deal about not being to go out with her? she has her own activities also... she has her own life to live too...
went to town area to play some games with friend... but doesnt really cheer me up... killing zombies n trying to win the game only... nth really entertaining... get lost in sg road... my normal routine... eat dinner... come back home... now printing letter... prepare for tml's work... so my 49days of working life start tml... 49days of not able to see her, not able to chat with her... not able to hear her voice.... nth seems to cheer me up anw... not even mango pudding or mango ice kachang... dun even mention mango ice-cream... cause nth will make my day bright again... it's covered with dark clouds... pouring non-stop.... with the wind blowing... guess i'm most likely turning into 'iceman'
Everyday is Sunny.
