=D Sunday, 30 March 2008 =) 2:26 am
looking for a partner is hard.. looking for some1 who knows u well is even harder.. it takes so much effort to learn about ones habits and the stuff they like to do.. etc.. after so much failure in trying to get a relationship... i guess i've been kinda numb in this stuff... wad can i do? lolx... wad a question to ask... y am i posting this post?? i dun know... just random writing i guess... going out with ppl.. u holding handphone i also holding... u busy with messages, i just look at the time stated in the handphone n wonder when will this outing come to an end...i wanna lock myself up at home... but i also wanna go out... wad can i do? go out alone lor.. it may sound kinda sick... but i rather watch movies alone nowadays... be it funny movie, horror, action pack... after movie ppl would discuss about wad happen during the movies n share which part thy like the most... i just think to myself... wad others might view about this movie... is the storyline gd enough? was the ending gd? how the actor portray the character.. haha... dun know.. just somethings i would think about i guess...
y didnt i watch movie with some1 else or even any friends? HAHA!!! I dun have any.. how sad? yeah... all arent like me... I've nth to busy about... i complete my stuff given to me fast n sweet... ok most importantly... my handphone is so quiet all the time... i wish it was ringing with girls name on it... haha...
after the incident, the sad case... i think my life is totally change... i may still look at the bright side of things but everything seems to move slower.. or am i too fast?? maybe the other way round... lost the motivation to do things too... going back to band used to be such enjoyable... now? band seems like hell to me... going out was such enjoyable... now? is seems like asking me to go n die... never like to comment much about stuff... had the idea of happy go lucky before... but it turns to if i can be happy for tt whole day it will be so great...
we learn from our history, learning from it makes us move forward n look forward to the future.. past, present, future.. would u rather live in the past making the same mistake over n over again? or in the present looking at the past thinking y am i so silly b4? or future? thinking wad might happen next if i choose this route?
Blogging, Msn-ing, sms-ing... everything i did... nth much i was busy about... just being dull... wad a dull person am i... haha... should be called Lenny instead of Kenny... cause L stands for LOSER.. HAHA!!!
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Wednesday, 26 March 2008 =) 11:58 pm
woot!! it has been a tiring week... bro finish his official wedding... sign the papers n now under the laws eyes they r a couple now... ^^ Congrats!! haha... before i start anything i wanna comment about the stuff i heard today... i've to thank all my friends who made it for the buffet... ^^ thx for coming down.. sry to those who had to sit at the 'VIP' seats... thy will know wad it meant... hee hee... ps... cannot blame me... u gotta blame the main organizer =p he never arrange it properly... i did my job well enough ^^ oh n to the special some1 i know she doesnt read my blog at all.. hope she get well soon ^.^ may all the gd blessing be on her...now the real blog begins... was shock to see the attendance give by the members... it was less then 1/2 the population... thn i heard it was only upper sec practices... ok.. reasonable... Express students had to attend some workshop n Normal Academic need not attend... wad logic issit then?? look down on NA students?? well.. it's the sch system... shall not comment on it... on the way to visit sch... saw afew members going home where it was suppose to be their practices... 1 even tried to hide her face from us... wanna skip practices y be shy about it?? *wonders..*
sir commented about the members not having the eager to look forward to every practices... well.. days have change.. ppl nowadays r no longer like us... n ppl never treasure wad's give to them at all.. thy take things for granted anw... the last outdoor performance was a flock.. as told by the teachers n conductors... i didnt see it for my own eyes didnt know how bad was it... but hearing wad sir said today... the band is going down hill totally sank my heart... at 1st i thought my batch was bad enough... now this is worse... i tried to pull the band together n tried to bring them higher... instead i wasnt experience enough to bring them up high... i had a great fall.. the greatest fall i ever had in life... the award given to us was unexpected n had no1 to be blame about it... cause we werent prepared enough... we werent ready... sch was giving so little n was expecting big... we had to bring a fresh batch to syf too... n the exposure was totally not enough... now after my batch everything pick up... i watch it by my own eyes seeing the band pick up... thy had tutor coming in... music exchanging, outdoor performance, etc... everything was given to them... new instruments, additional items such as stands personally for instrument, protective gears n etc... everything was given to the students... n wad did thy know about it?? during my time?? the sch doesnt even care about it... does the band need another wake up call?? it isnt my job anw... but it hurts seeing them going down... as told by sir... the reputation build by the alumni is going down the drain... all the effort we put in is going to waste... wad is going on with the members?? wad's wrong with them? there's even an urgent call from sir if the alumni is needed to go n perform... well.. my decision was final... i'm not performing... n i will not perform... i'll only be the videography man...
reactivate all the alumni is an impossible job already... either all r working or army or still studying... wanting all to come back?? i guess only the fresh graduate batch will go back.. other then tt... the rest of the batch is impossible to be called-back...
majors fault? SL fault? Members fault? School fault? Teachers fault? Conductor Fault????
whose will it be then? no motivation? no target? so dead... zombie was use to describe the members... come n go for practices... never had the fighting or eager sprite to come for band or fight for their own rights... will speaking to them help actually? Hmm... wonders... if it would, i dun mind forking out my time to go back n lecture them by in wad states do i have? i'm only a public member n a alumni which is not recognize by the school... Shall look at the situation n how it's being tackle... Everything will be KIV
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Sunday, 16 March 2008 =) 10:35 pm
after 3days of not sleeping well... i think i can finally slp well n fully... haha!!! brother's traditional chinese wedding end ytd! or today? Hmm... put it as today.. haha!! everything settle... under the eyes of the God n parents... thy r officially married n will be known as couple =d under the eyes of the law... thy wont be couple until 23/03 =DDDsat monring 3am woke up to prepare stuff n only took a power nap... cause by the time we get ready everything n settle almost everything... is already 12 - 1am plus... Zzzz had to tie the wedding car... woot! it was a merc benz S350!!! how big was it?? BIG, B-I-G... haha... so cool man..i got to play with the car n explore almost everything in it... haha!!! wad a toy for me to play with... haha!!!
tie up n decorate the car... lolx... so much fun doing it... haha!! ribbion all ard it.. >< how i wish i can drive it out.. argh!!! ok.. went to pick up the bride at the hotel at 5am? ya.. at 1st dad said if the 'jie mei' wanna play game just let them play... we only wan the bride... haha!! thn i told him i'll bring monopoly set there for them to play then...haha!! isnt it a great idea??? playing game ma!! haha!!! 4 warriors, 4 brave warriors... haha!! went to collect the bride.. to be correct is 3.. cause 3 ate tt kind of special food they prepared... Zzzz eww!
here abit there abit about the stuff la... if full story... thn i dun need to prepare the video already..haha!!! let's summaries everything... lots of crappy stuff happen n some of it will either get nag or laugh at... haha!! as the video, camera, best man, brother, wad else can i add??? i'm the multi purpose guy of the day... busy until all i wan now is SLEEP! lots n lots of SLEEP!! if i can get a full 24hrs slp... i dun mind getting it.. haha!!! so tired! n now i'm sick... down with common flu... say to be morning flu... but i call it allergy to morning flu... haha!!! i'm allergic to the morning... haha!!!
too sleepy liao le.. if got chance i let u watch the video i took n edited... haha!!! ><
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Friday, 14 March 2008 =) 12:14 am
i manage to survive even after my bankruptcy haha!!! yeah yeah!!! never went out at all this few days.. got stuck at home due to a couple of reasons... most important is because of the weather.. raining non-stop... Zzzz wanna go out catch movie also cannot la... dun say shopping... haha!! but mentioning those 2... i also cannot do.. cause i've no money to do such activity.. haha... bankrupt man... wad can i do?? work lor... work for my dad's accounts... haha!! manage to complete the stack n finish almost everything already.. left some complicated ones... which i've no ideas how to do them... so i just leave them aside... haha!!! dun wanna mess up his income tax.. =poh.. i manage to photoshop a wedding invitation card out making it as if produce solely for my beloved bro...
compare this 2 n see which is which... haha!!!!
this was the original copy i had to edit... Zzzzz
the new improve invitation card... haha!!!! it took me 4hrs plus to complete it n some editing b4 printing it out... haha!!! take note... i was given the task in the middle of the nite 12midnite... Zzz while i was watching tv!!! n doing some random chatting... thn rush out... Zzzzz work until 4am.. thn finish the rough copy out... n wasted afew pieces of paper to adjust the font n alignment.. woohooo!! n it's done... should write copyright on it.. haha!!! damn.. forgot!!! -.-"" nvm.. will sign on every pieces of the card... haha!! saying tt it's created by ME!! lolx!! the Master of editing... =p ok la... the advance editing using basic programs... haha!! OK la... The 1 who's gd in editing using super basic software... happy?? Zzzz
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Saturday, 8 March 2008 =) 11:55 pm
yeah!! officially now i've a new toy to play with... it's the new HDR-SR7E =D Full HD video cam!! wooohooo!! cost me a bomb to get this stuff... n lots of effort... currently i'm in debt with my dad.. amt close to 3K T_T but with the new toy! it will be my motivation of life!! woohoo!!! now i've a digital cam n a video cam!!! wooohooo~~~ photo or video, u pick it i come with it... =D yahooo!!!ok how did i got my video cam? 1st is money... haha... ya in debt... owe my dad money now... ya!! ok.. thn it's IT fair!!! woohooo!!! this is where u might get additional stuff with cheaper price... ><
IT fair come ppl... lots n lots of ppl... u have to squeeze ur way in n out of tt place!! i only manage to visit 1 booth n tt's the Sony booth... =p went down to Suntec myself... went up all the way to the sony booth n take a look at my dream video cam... >< was trying to get a cheaper price of the video cam... but it's a fix price... well.. wad to do.. gd things come gd price.. =p everything is all about queue in IT Fair... 1st queue to pay for the product... lolx... this is the funny part n a lesson to rmb.. ALWAYs check ur credit limit b4 u purchase anything... lolx!! i've a credit limit of 2K in my bank... n the product i was about to purchase was about 2K.. lolx.. wad can i do?? well... pay by cash? close.. i paid 2K in Netts n the remaining in cash.. cold hard cash... =p had to rush to marina sq's ATM to withdraw money... haha!! so joker... went back to the counter.. "oh u r here..." haha... n the best part is after i paid the remaining amount.. i was waiting for my change... waiting n waiting... the cashier told me "you r done. =)" well my reply arx?? "eh... my change??" haha!!!! broke into laugh both the senior cashier n junior cashier.. i was smiling n cant wait to collect my new toy!!! =p
after queue up for payment... now queue up for Collection.. zzzz where to find the remaining strength to visit other booth?? n i was drown by the items pour at me... 2 huge boxes... 1 my video cam n the other a photo printer... haha!!! 2 big bags of stuff... 1 me! =p no car only public transport... ='( i took a bus back home... praying to get a seat... nope... didnt get at all.. had to stand all the way back with my lovely new toy on the floor T_T!
now charging my toy's batteries... haha!! i've 3 powerful batteries... =p total of 7hrs life spend.. weee!!! so now, how shall i play with it?? Hmm... so many stuff to video.. =p so much to explore in the cam =DD woohooo!!! 2nd item to play with!! both my cam rocks!!! Rawr!!!!
Everyday is Sunny.
=D Saturday, 1 March 2008 =) 1:02 am
wad a day to end ppl's bowl of rice... I attended a farewell party or should i say farewell event? cause it doesnt seems like a party to me at all... ppl were crying.. n the 1 being farewell isnt ready to leave at all actually.. it just happen in a snap of a finger.. everything just happen so suddenly.. just a blink of eyes he's no longer my ex sch conductor... but he is still my Sir no matter wad happen... Sirs will always be Sirs! in my heart he's a friend n a buddy... frankly speaking in the beginning i didnt really like him veri much... y? maybe due to the style of his conducting and style of expressing... but i manage to adapt to his style anw... haha!! he was a funny guy actually just tt he had a more serious look thn others... he is 1 of the most friendly guy i ever met... =D didnt express myself during the farewell cause i was afraid tt i might broke into tears n couldnt carry on with it... but i still have my job to complete... life still has to go on... band still needs to move...i was puzzled totally today.. y didnt it happen to me at all?? y didnt she propose to me??!?!? y didnt she?? if she did i would agree without hesitation.. but i waited... n i waited... no sign at all.. y is God so unfair? it's a leap year.. it happens only 4yrs once... it's a cycle.. u dun get it everyday.. i can forget about the past n start a brand new beginning.. but.. all the waiting didnt really work at all.. couldnt believe it myself either... she's still somewhere inside my heart.. i didnt let it go because of hate? or do i really fall for her??
ppl say she isnt worth it, others say she's not pretty at all... some say i deserves better girls then her cause she's just using me... so who or where should i believe?? i know i had to move on... i'm trying my best to move on for the past 2 mths... i force myself to forget about it... i enter exam condition with mind full of her... i took up driving trying to finish it as fast as possible cause i wanna make her jealous... isnt it silly?? cant believe i'm doing all this... my TP will be on May the fastest... i'm aiming to get April's slot.. but it seems impossible... i wanna get my driving fast cause i wanna impress her? i dun know... driving is just an additional transport for me only... maybe i just dun wanna spend anytime wasting my trip down to the center anymore... maybe i guess...
shall i wait for another 4yrs??? or shall i not???
Everyday is Sunny.
