=D Wednesday, 8 August 2007 =) 8:27 pm
asked if i have fallen in love with any girl? yes i've but was that a puppy love or true love?
asked if i still love her? I dun know... i'm lost... i've no idea.. i dun dare to answer this question... all i can say is i just still couldnt move on with my life...
who could understand this feeling anw? it's like u tried ur best to sell urself.. but upon seeing ur leg just go into jelly states, lost of words, empty mind... u wanted tt moment to last but ur moving system just lead u to another place.. missing tt chance of being with there.. acting as if no1 was there or u dun care about it at all...
in ur heart u r dying to see but ur mind doesnt give a damn about it.. i feel like drowning myself with work.. but it doesnt work... it never works... work will come to an end... n it always does... no matter how hard i tried... i'll still come back to square 1...
am i a sucker at this? i felt tt i'm... all i need is just a comfort zone... i couldnt find any.. neither can i trust any... couldnt find due to the different life-style or just isnt wad i'm lookin for.. cant trust due to i can never tell wad is in their mind, issit friendly or ready to strike anytime..
now i wonder to myself... can i handle being a psychologist? it's just irony tt i can help other ppl solve their problems or find excuses to let them felt happy... but i cant solve my own problem nor can i get any excuses to cheer myself up.. I hate it and I hate myself... =(
ALONE... I'm JUST ALONE
Everyday is Sunny.
