=D Sunday, 18 November 2007 =) 3:04 am
it's no longer the same as before.. everything has change.. everyone has change..
it used to be a group of ppl hanging out together with laughter n full of joy.. now i dun feel the joy much at all.. laughter might still be there but it just isnt the things tt i know much about.. besides talking about car lesson, working, own sch...there's just nth else to talk about... the topic tt's being talked about r almost the same.. other thn mahjong or steambout or movie... which used to be wad we do during secondary times but it has become a habit tt it almost bored me to death... issit me or issit the gang? ok i do admit i'm not in a great mood at all... totally turn off in anything i do...
y am i so turn off?? talk about it later... let's start with the outing today... went down to orchard 2pm plus.. went to buy tickets to watch 'the game plan' kinda touching storyline about father n daughter... almost laid my tears on this show... thn it was steambout which u get bored of it whn u eat it almost everytime n nth seems to change about it... ya... as usual, me collect money pay n bring those stuff to them... was a class-treasurer after all... after all tt stuffing myself with those oily n burnt food we went to play abit of video games... ya... boring!! ZzzZzzZzz... after thn home sweet home... i did nth much on board the train... just hook myself to my mp3 boom, slping... n back home here bloging...
about y am i turn off? now i realize tt i've no1 to turn to anymore... current i've this knot tt i dun know how to untie in my heart... it just choke me up so tight... maybe it's time for me to get a personal diary... i've too much thing to say n it just cannot be said over this place... maybe personal diary is my only choice...
it's so hard to get over sth.. maybe it's just a crash but it's also wrong to have this crash.. she's attach and how can i b like so close to her?? u just feel weird whn her bf is ard... u dun know wad to say also... but hanging out with her seems enjoyable... maybe she's close to every1 n i just somehow place my feelings inside... entered the wrong game already... y does it always happen to me n i have no idea how to tackle it at all.. it's either i like some1 but the other party doesnt seems interested or ppl's already attach.. but hey... attach ppl y should i b a 3rd party?? arent i extra over there... foolish me to play the game...
maybe i'm too rush... guess i'm too despo to be attach? or i'm dying to have some1 to lean on.. it's just so tired walking alone... I'm tired already... i've serve the golden mace 3yrs and wad has it brought me? nth... not even a gd course for me to study... let's not blame it on the mace but myself... wad am i anw... i'm no handsome dude... just an average guy... wad's there for ppl to look into me about...
wanted to share this with my 'brothers' but at 1 glance.. u dun see any1 who can understand my situation at all.. thy r just too busy with their driving n work... as if getting a car is so important whn u r only 18yrs old n only working part-time... well.. i'm in no position to talk bad about it also... so blame it on me for being a fool... I'm seriously veri tired... so tired... so T-i-r-e-d.......
Everyday is Sunny.
