=D Saturday, 1 March 2008 =) 1:02 am
wad a day to end ppl's bowl of rice... I attended a farewell party or should i say farewell event? cause it doesnt seems like a party to me at all... ppl were crying.. n the 1 being farewell isnt ready to leave at all actually.. it just happen in a snap of a finger.. everything just happen so suddenly.. just a blink of eyes he's no longer my ex sch conductor... but he is still my Sir no matter wad happen... Sirs will always be Sirs! in my heart he's a friend n a buddy... frankly speaking in the beginning i didnt really like him veri much... y? maybe due to the style of his conducting and style of expressing... but i manage to adapt to his style anw... haha!! he was a funny guy actually just tt he had a more serious look thn others... he is 1 of the most friendly guy i ever met... =D didnt express myself during the farewell cause i was afraid tt i might broke into tears n couldnt carry on with it... but i still have my job to complete... life still has to go on... band still needs to move...
i was puzzled totally today.. y didnt it happen to me at all?? y didnt she propose to me??!?!? y didnt she?? if she did i would agree without hesitation.. but i waited... n i waited... no sign at all.. y is God so unfair? it's a leap year.. it happens only 4yrs once... it's a cycle.. u dun get it everyday.. i can forget about the past n start a brand new beginning.. but.. all the waiting didnt really work at all.. couldnt believe it myself either... she's still somewhere inside my heart.. i didnt let it go because of hate? or do i really fall for her??
ppl say she isnt worth it, others say she's not pretty at all... some say i deserves better girls then her cause she's just using me... so who or where should i believe?? i know i had to move on... i'm trying my best to move on for the past 2 mths... i force myself to forget about it... i enter exam condition with mind full of her... i took up driving trying to finish it as fast as possible cause i wanna make her jealous... isnt it silly?? cant believe i'm doing all this... my TP will be on May the fastest... i'm aiming to get April's slot.. but it seems impossible... i wanna get my driving fast cause i wanna impress her? i dun know... driving is just an additional transport for me only... maybe i just dun wanna spend anytime wasting my trip down to the center anymore... maybe i guess...
shall i wait for another 4yrs??? or shall i not???
Everyday is Sunny.
