=D Sunday, 30 March 2008 =) 2:26 am
looking for a partner is hard.. looking for some1 who knows u well is even harder.. it takes so much effort to learn about ones habits and the stuff they like to do.. etc.. after so much failure in trying to get a relationship... i guess i've been kinda numb in this stuff... wad can i do? lolx... wad a question to ask... y am i posting this post?? i dun know... just random writing i guess... going out with ppl.. u holding handphone i also holding... u busy with messages, i just look at the time stated in the handphone n wonder when will this outing come to an end...
i wanna lock myself up at home... but i also wanna go out... wad can i do? go out alone lor.. it may sound kinda sick... but i rather watch movies alone nowadays... be it funny movie, horror, action pack... after movie ppl would discuss about wad happen during the movies n share which part thy like the most... i just think to myself... wad others might view about this movie... is the storyline gd enough? was the ending gd? how the actor portray the character.. haha... dun know.. just somethings i would think about i guess...
y didnt i watch movie with some1 else or even any friends? HAHA!!! I dun have any.. how sad? yeah... all arent like me... I've nth to busy about... i complete my stuff given to me fast n sweet... ok most importantly... my handphone is so quiet all the time... i wish it was ringing with girls name on it... haha...
after the incident, the sad case... i think my life is totally change... i may still look at the bright side of things but everything seems to move slower.. or am i too fast?? maybe the other way round... lost the motivation to do things too... going back to band used to be such enjoyable... now? band seems like hell to me... going out was such enjoyable... now? is seems like asking me to go n die... never like to comment much about stuff... had the idea of happy go lucky before... but it turns to if i can be happy for tt whole day it will be so great...
we learn from our history, learning from it makes us move forward n look forward to the future.. past, present, future.. would u rather live in the past making the same mistake over n over again? or in the present looking at the past thinking y am i so silly b4? or future? thinking wad might happen next if i choose this route?
Blogging, Msn-ing, sms-ing... everything i did... nth much i was busy about... just being dull... wad a dull person am i... haha... should be called Lenny instead of Kenny... cause L stands for LOSER.. HAHA!!!
Everyday is Sunny.
