=D Monday, 21 April 2008 =) 1:38 am
great... i went to shorten my hair... now i've a brand new hair style... i used to promised myself tt i wont cut my hair until i found a gf.. have i found 1? nope... i didnt... i'm still single.. how's my hair?? well... i kinda like it... nth much to complain abut... was like thy type i used to have.. just tt without slope... supposed to cut my hair after my bday... well... mum was going so i just tag along... it only cost me $8.. ok cost mum not me.. i didnt really pay.. the hair dresser tried to make a style for me... but i still prefer to comb back my hair... think i got used to tt style.. comb my hair to the side just isnt wad i will do at all... so the jap style... Ewww... so not me...
feeling kinda down today... to be correct ytd? oh well wad ever... just need some place for me to split it out.. no1 can i chat with heart to heart... i can only blog it out hoping tt God might answer this calling? (BS...) as most ppl might know.. or not.. my bday is coming.. (big deal) every yr will be the same.. family buy cake blow off the candle.. etc etc... nth special... just like everyday style... if lucky enough.. i might get loads of gift... ya tt's like years ago whn i was still young i guess.. already live in this world for almost 2 decade... wad have i really archive? other thn posts in my secondary sch... nth much actually... regular normal student who score average grades n single for all my secondary sch life... GEEK! HAHA!!! I'm laughing at myself actually right now.. everytime i've a crash on a girl... i always fail to keep it to myself... confirm will tell some1 about it... hopeing tt thy might help me out.. (yank~~) n after i like/love tt girl.. thy always seems to be turn off from me... reason?? dun know... thy treat me as close friends or brother? oh plz.. come on.. if tt were to happen... i will have so many many sisters... well.. love cant just happen in a click of the fingers... it takes time to develop.. well.. tt's wad 1 told me... i tried developing it... but fail.. y? studies... all because of studies.. actually to be correct... i always got rejected due to studies... Hmm.. so studies comes first.. y can i handle both my cca n studies equally others can give a little space for me?? oh i know.. i'm too big n scary... (Rawr?)
yeah so i like this girl n i like another girl... thn i like back tt girl who ditch me before... so wad's the issue? i cannot like ppl whn i'm still single? oh.. i need to concentrate on 1 girl... oh come on... concentrate.. u will only end up being more heart-broken.. y not let me like all 3 girls this girl another girl n the 1 who ditch me at 1 shot n get heart-broken all in 1 shot.. it's much cheaper.. if 1 by 1... i will need to visit the pub 4 times... y 4? the additional 1 more time is just incase.. 4 times means drinking 4times also... spending more money n harming myself even more... y not just pain once n for all... drink up n have a hell loads of fun being ditch... ditch by 3 different ppl.. with 3 different reasons... come on... face it.. waiting for my destiny? (yawnZ) never appear at all.. thy always walk pass me n never even say hi to me at all... thy actually ignore me... yeah IGNORE ME... I shall keep my silence... silence to the outside world... only typing it out can help me destress currently... how am i feeling right now?? i wanna cry... yesh i wanna cry... nobody will actually understand how it feels to be alone 1 person... with no1 truthful to talk to... u can only sink urself into the music world... listen to all the emo songs... thinking about the lyrics the singer is trying to pass the msg to...
best friends, close buddies, brothers, etc etc... i had enough of those already... injecting them into my just makes me feel numb... doesnt really have any effect on me... ya... no effect... or should i say... I'm like listening to it till my ears r immune to it already... how i view every1 right now?? thy r just passer by.. thy come n go... thy walk pass u, bang u down, tried to steal from u, anything u can think of while walking down a busy street full of ppl from all walks of life... where am i walking to? no where... or maybe to my target.. Hmm.. wad's my target?? i wanna get a degree? phd? laughing stock!! shall see how far i can study till... but 1 thing's for sure... my destiny? it sux!
Everyday is Sunny.
