=D Wednesday, 16 April 2008 =) 11:35 pm
every year during my 1st semester i'll surely face some stupid problems... last yr? i was afraid tt i couldnt adapt to the new environment and ppl.. afraid tt i might flunk my poly life... screw up everything... but it was kinda ok... everything was fine... abit of ups n down... but nth much tt i couldnt handle...
this yr... i again posted to another class... totally strange environment... not tt i dun know any of them but just tt i dun feel the sense of closeness... it isnt my usual classmates... just need to adapt again... which is irritating for those who can understand.. tried to transfer back to my old class.. wasnt successful at 1st... but after finding out that there's students whose willing to transfer with me back to their old class i was happy at 1st.. now i'm puzzle... should i carry on with the transfer?? it's like for the sake of me... all of them r doing this transfer... puzzled... seriously puzzle... in addition i'm down with sickness... coughing, headache, etc... Grrr....so sick, so tired... so dun wish to attend sch feeling... am i thinking too much or issit just the fact tt i'm troublesome? seriously have no idea wad am i doing... at 1st i was so eager to change back to my previous class... now i'm like unwillingly doing it... maybe because some whom have adapt fast enough to the new environment doesnt wish to go back... or just? i dun know... this is messy n complex to explain it out... stupid sch system... causing so much trouble... ARGHHH... Screwed up life... totally screwed up...
better off being left alone... maybe tt's my life born to be... HAHA!!! wad to do... cant work WELL enough with others.. so am i still a team sports player?? am i still fitted to join the sports i desire? oh my... so confusing... so messy... so many things running in my mind... oh Kenny... where do u belong acutally?? where?
Everyday is Sunny.
