=D Friday, 20 February 2009 =) 8:11 pm
it was only last yr... i had a crush with this young girl... but it was over whn things turn sour as time pass... i was having a hard time trying to get over it... but i eventually did anw...
almost 3yrs ago.. i had the heaviest crush with this beautiful girl in sch... the cream of the cream among the crop... but i still had to get over it eventually... y? got rejected duh...
after such hurting incidents... now another 1... another 1 tt almost killed me mentally... it's a mind game in relationship... u either have it sweet or have it head spinning... she's not as beautiful as 3yrs ago tt girl... but she's sweet looking, well organized, perfectionist, smart... actually almost all the girls i like r smart... oh well...
previous few actually took me awhile but i didnt have much emotional problem as compare to now... well.. it's from wad i feel... maybe it's not accurate at all... maybe all r equally the same.. but it really kills me this time.... issit because of my age? older u get the more emotional u get??
"pop the question... if not u will never know it..." it's easy to say then done... it may be a 50:50 chance... but it is still weird as the question is being asked... taking it slowly... ya... who dun wish it to be? the distance is already killing.. the silence is slowly torturing... i dun ask for much... just able take a decent photo, have a decent outing, nice decent friend jokes... additional will be able to send u home... able to lend u my jacket whn u feel cold... the extreme will be able to hold ur hand n walk u down the road... hug u tightly protecting u from the cold....
i still have 2 more papers to go... n now i cant seriously concentrate... i seriously think i'm gona screw up again this time... all i wan is just to pass... n go up to yr3... once there i'll find ways to fight back again... i believe i can reach a gpa of 3 somehow... know us being together seems impossible... but i'm willing to give it a shot... a shot for me to remember before i end my schooling life... dun even know whn will my next sch days be here again...
from the bottom of my heart, i'm deeply crazy over you i guess... you might just be the destiny... or maybe not.... is chance on my side this time round?
Everyday is Sunny.
