=D Monday, 9 February 2009 =) 10:17 pm
Looking out at my window... i could actually see the brightest moon i ever seen in my life... if only i could touch it with u... or watching it with u...
today is the last day of chinese new year.. no more gambling for me anymore.. i didnt get to gamble much anw.. didnt really enjoy this new yr at all.. all i did was note making, playing facebook, looking at ppl's new yr pictures, stuck with the 4wall surrounding me... this is how it will be this coming sat also... have to prepare myself for the coming exam... but i just couldnt get the mood in... i kept drifting away...
i would either await for the green icon to be shown on msn, or look into facebook for any updates... it's totally no life at all.. i'm like so dead already... felt like yr 1 tt time.. but this time round worse... i've totally lost it.. i've fell in love with some1 whom i shouldnt have..
she has this sweet looking face, soft gentle voice, not very tall nor very skinny... she has the mind of a businesswoman, independent lady.. things seem to be possible ard her... it's like the motto "just do it"
chatting with her will totally make my day.. crapping with her seems so enjoyable... anything to do with her will just make my day...
does she knows about me having such a huge crush on her? guess not...
can i let her know about me having this huge crush on her? guess not...
even if i told her about it, will she accpet me? guess not...
why this negative thinking?? well.. why not? I haven been veri successful in dating a girl, nor have i been or hold a girl's hand... who would wan to hold a sweaty palm? i dun even enjoy having it...
there's a name to this psychological feelings... a name which i dun even know how it is spelled.. i could just predict wad would happen n how it would turn out...
keeping it inside me kills... but tell out just kill both parties current relationship... guess i would rather go crazy and not let her know about it... dun wan more ppl to get hurt over such sensitive stuff... valentines' day coming, i had plan to bake..but i've to drop the idea due to lack of time n pressure given via the past CA i've scored... Arghh... how worse can my yrs of poly be? can i just get over the r/s thingy n move on alone?? must i really have some1 ard me to let me feel comfortable n to love me? (if u r talking about parent love... u r reading the wrong blog... seriously get a life...)
Destiny, are you my destiny??
Everyday is Sunny.
