=D Saturday, 2 May 2009 =) 2:02 am
am i trying too hard?? or am i just pushing my luck?? am i doing too much?? wad is limit? am i over doing things??? it's kinda hard to manage it... but i just couldnt help it... am i actually over doing it?? should i take 5steps back?? am i too rushy?? i'm really confused...
i'm sry but... i dun know... do i know too much or do i talk too much?? am i just not tt perfect after all?? am i just not ur type of guy? am i just the passerby which will never be able to be the 1 walking down the rest of the road side by side with u? wad should i be doing right now?? wad am i consider right now?? who am i actually?? where is the real kenny?? whose the real kenny? how does the real kenny looks like actually?? what will he be doing right now?? this isnt me... i wont be like this... i should be having my own stand... i should be able to walk the road by myself even whn ppl disappear... i wont be so crazy over... i wont be doing all this... i will be the slacker which never cares about anything... happy go lucky everyday... wad has i become?? am i changing for the person i love?? am i changing for the sake of her???
why... why am i doing this.... why am i becoming like this... wad has gotten into me... wad am i doing.... i wanna get a grip of myself... but... but... it just drives me crazy... it drives me nuts... it drives me... F***!!!! WAD IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHH!!!! this is wrong... so wrong... crap... I screwed myself... totally screwed myself... some1 please chop off my hands, some1 please cut my eyes... chop off my tongue plz... some1... do it for me.. PLEASE!~ It the only choice i have currently...
I've got to end this... i've got to stop myself... i've got to know my limit... i've got to do sth about it... i've got to.... i've got to.... arghh... i'm aimless already... i've no aim... i dun know wad am i after already... wad is my goal... i lost my purpose... i lost my goal... i'm lost....
I've lost the old kenny....
Everyday is Sunny.
