=D Sunday, 24 January 2010 =) 12:08 am
I had a chill out session with my ex old classmate... well old cause he is older then me.. yeah... supposed to be a drinking session but in the end, i didnt get to drink..
had a long chat... alots of crappy 1... end of the day.. i just get craps n stuff...
it has been set... after this sem, no matter wad i still must make it thru.. i must get is done with... no matter wad this cert is wad i'm here for... everytime i tell ppl about wad i wan in my life.. but everytime i ask myself again n again... whn will i settle down? when will i found some1 tt i can really love n share my things with...
everytime i found 1, either i couldnt gather enough courage to tell her how i felt about her or i just get rejected... of course ppl always say i'm still young.. some say it's puppy love... others will just claim tt i dun know wad is love... so wad is love to u?? wad is the love that u r looking for? wad issit tt i cant provided?
i rmb, last wed.. this insurance agent.. came n talk to me about saving insurance... i wasnt really keen on it... so after her much talking about it... i just rejected it.. as i feel tt it isnt time... then she asked about my future... well.. i told her i wanted to go sailing for a few years and then come back to singapore to settle down with the family business.. sailing for the experience as i just feel tt coming right into the family business after so much studies just isnt the right time at all... i'm lack of working experience... other then working for my dad... i had only worked for a few part-times.. been to lots of interview.. almost all i've pass... but just tt i cant commit to them... other then my family time.. i just cant seems to commit to working during my part-time days..
Sailing, i've to put down everything in singapore n travel around the world.. wont be home for days, mths or worse yrs... am i really able to put down everything n travel?? for now... i've no girlfriend.. i've not much relatives in singapore.. parents r going to retired, planning to travel round the world... siblings have their own family... i'm the only 1 left.. am i willing to drop everything n leave singapore??
"what do u see urself in 10yrs time down the road?"
during 1 of the experiment for fyp.. i was asked this question... 10yrs ago.. while still in primary sch... we wanted to be fireman, superman, batman.. policeman.. all the so called hero in life... 10yrs later... i'm in marine engineering... a so called impressive job whn ppl heard about it... their 1st reaction.. "woah!" i get tt always... no matter how i put it... it's always the same reaction... so wad will i be doing 10yrs later? will i have a family? will i be enjoying my life? will i be happy like 20yrs ago during primary sch time.. pass each day like nth...
'if u fail to plan, u plan to fail..'
i've planned my route... but.. issit wad i really wan or am i just smoking myself out of the question.. to stop ppl from asking me more questions n prevent the situation from getting awkward?
life.. if u could see ur future... would u wan to do it??
Everyday is Sunny.
