=D Monday, 1 March 2010 =) 9:01 pm
wad does it meant to u? how do u define it? Love. 1 word.. that can link up to 28 meanings.. which of it does it bring to u??
Love - a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
Love - a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
so many more... just dun know which to use...
do i really love her so deep tt i just couldnt let it go at all? am i so deeply in love that i cant stop thinking about her at all? am i able to move on without her ard? everytime i ask for focus n strength to concentrate.. i'm granted with full thoughts of her n the great times we had together.. i wan to keep my mind off her but i cant.. i just wish tt my memory would go off just like tt... i dun rmb who u r... n i'm just a complete stranger to u... we never met, we dun know each other at all..
issit too much to ask for? sometimes we asked is He the Great One playing with our life? is He so bored that He just wan to see me misery? however some look at it this way, He knows tt i can make it thru cause He knows that i've the capability to do so.. which side would u be on?? the look on the bright side or blame it on others if u can??
i feel like abit of both... sometimes i just wan to cry it out n shout... letting the rain pour on me n wash me... wash me clean n awake... at least after tt i know i'm loved someway or another..
ppl r sick of me talking about it... ppl r sick of seeing me this way... ppl r sick of me tt they rather walk away from me... it's just how u take things... i couldnt take it because i cant bear to... i'm not willing to... i never lost it... but... i had no choice... no choice but it's God's will.. He wants me to move on.. He is trying to force me to.. but somehow i always move n stop.. is there some1 willing to pull me along till the day i can move on by myself? will there be some1 willing to spend their time trying to pull me out of this mess? is there such a kind soul out there?
Friendship, Relationship? which is more important?? would u keep a friendship n lose a relationship or had tt relationship rune and friendship seems so unclear to u.. is there a way to keep both?? if u r living in earth n taking in oxygen as ur primary source of living.. the freaking answer to u is NO! NO CHANCE IN HELL U CAN GET TO KEEP BOTH!!! tt's the fact... accept it... u either lose 1... or both...
Cant bear to lose it? u just have to be the thick skin 1... but will it be gd? it had been stated tt ppl felt better without u ard n they r much more relieve about telling u all the things u need to know n thy need to say... so?? u still wan to be there?? u dare to be there??
having to know some1 u love so dearly is leaving u n u never wanted it to end is never a gd feeling.. if not for those mistake, there might still be chance but it just hurts u even more whn u think of the times u spend together... the things u told each other, the promises, the lovely moment... but it just ended.. as gd as a knife slowly moving across ur heart.. it just doesnt want to stab n end ur life.. it just move ard u slowly... letting u feel the cold n sharp blades..
tears r ard ur eyes but u just couldnt shed a tear... not tt u dun wan.. not tt u wanna prove tt u r a man... u just couldnt do it...
sick now, but who cares? the 1 u love dearly cant be bothered about ur life... cause y? ppl have other much more important stuff to worry about... seriously need a helping hand to pull me out... i've less then 48hrs...
God, I believe that you are planning something special for me.. I believe so..
Everyday is Sunny.
